Brilliantly Dark: Recapping The Mess (Issue #2)

Wait, what? Are you still doing this?

Chapter 1: Another Monday, another day in hell.
Soundtrack: Daniel Powter - Bad Day

Do I really hate my job?

Or do I hate working?

Hate is a very strong word, and we think we know....

We think that we have the answers...

But most of the time...we don't.

We know that something isn't right, we dread waking up...especially on Mondays...

But we don't know how to fix it...

Add snacks, ping-bong tables...make every Friday a party! nothing helps...

There's something missing...they'll call it passion...they'll call it purpose...meaning...making a difference...

Or maybe it's just the fall of our expectations, because our lives are not as flashy or grandiose as we thought it would be when we were kids...

Maybe it's both...maybe everything is already perfect and we're ruining it...

But maybe it's not...and the answer is not in a motivation speech, it's not in Glassdoor reviews, it's not in your bank account, and it's not even in a LinkedIn post...

It's buried deep inside you...no one can show us the answer...because every answer is different...there's something in you that knows what happiness is for you!

And until you make peace with that part of you, and take steps to achieve your happiness...the best job in the world will still feel like hell.

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Chapter 2: The Circle.

Soundtrack: Radiohead - Creep

Are you allowed into the inner circle?

Or are you an outcast?

Do you ache to belong?

Even when they don't want you there?

You thought you could escape it...that you can forget about it...

Throw it behind your back and move on...

I grew up...the real world...the adult world doesn't have those, right?

But circles...they never end...that's their thing...

So you kept cowering...you kept masking your truth...to fit in...

To be liked...to be allowed to join their circle...at work...online...

On social media...in your neighborhood...sometimes even at home...

And the more circles you entered the more you realized there are more...

The inner inner circles...and the circles kept circling you...

You kept losing parts of you...just to be one of them...to feel this belonging...

This fake elitism...when will you realize? That the cost of being one of them is to murder the real you.

And once that happens...once that happens it won't even matter if you're in or out...because a dead person can't feel happiness...they can't win...they can't live...even if their heart is still pumping its fake blood.

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Chapter 3: I’m right…you’re wrong.

Soundtrack: Hello, Goodbye - The Beatles

Do you disagree?

Can I change your mind?

Are we doomed to be on opposite sides?

Because the proof is so clear from where I'm standing...

And I know you think you have proof too...but do you really?

I don't think so, my proof is better...see, the truth is the truth and it's my truth!

So let's keep fighting...because what else can we do? Nothing.

I see you as an evil idiot and you see me the same way.

And the thing is: if you really want proof...

You'll find it...everywhere you look...

You'll connect imaginary dots...

You'll find patterns...

You'll make it work...

And we can fight about anything...big, small, essential, or insignificant...

Let's just keep the ball rolling...let's keep fueling the monster inside...

We have to, don't we?

We've become so obsessed with proving each other wrong...that we forgot that...

Behind all of our masks we're still the same...we're still humans...

So maybe instead of trying to prove the other side wrong with our amazing arguments and powerful proof...maybe we should try to understand.

Maybe...just maybe we don't know everything.

Maybe none of us is truly that evil or that idiotic...

Maybe you can change my mind!

Maybe we can finally agree.

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Chapter 4: We don’t have all the time in the world.

Soundtrack: Jim Croce - Time In A Bottle

Nothing in life is a guarantee...

Not the good and certainly not the bad...

Yet we spend every day like we know...like it's already been written...

Delaying actions, delaying conversations, delaying feelings...delaying living...

It doesn't matter where you live...there's no place that's truly safe...

If objects are not flying over your head, if earthquakes are not shaking the ground under your feet...if storms just pass you by...even if you're blessed with the best immune system in the world...

You might be taking a break...getting some coffee...and suddenly an accident happens...and everything is over in a second.

And no, this isn't about that, and this isn't even about the inevitability of death...yes it was sparked by it...but it's about something more...something bigger.

Honestly, look at your day, did you live today? Or were you just checking boxes...because you're so convinced the time to live is “later”.

Come back to reality, because the reality is: we know nothing...now is the time to live...whatever that means to you...just live.

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Chapter 5: Doubts come back…

Soundtrack: Julia Brennan - Inner Demons

Am I losing the plot?

They told me to believe and everything will be alright...

I did, at least I tried. Did it work? Is it over?

Can I rest now?

No one tells you that it's never over, doubts don't just go away...

They never surrender...they keep coming back...they keep hitting us...

Harder and harder and harder and HARDER...

They never surrender, but unfortunately we do...

We let the voices accumulate...and we listen, we believe, we surrender.

"Giving up is easy" Have you heard this phrase before? I don't think it's easy.

Giving up is hard, it crushes the soul, it leaves you a shell of human...

Believing is also hard, fighting when everything in you is doubting you is hard.

But maybe that's what's life is about...choosing the hard that makes sense, the one that builds you, not the one that tears you to pieces...

And once you do...remember, you have to make that choice again every single time.

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Poetry Corner:

Original Arabic Poetry:
تدور ومهما تدور…فيا الامل مكسور

فى الضلمه او فى النور…مليش ما بينهم دور

مكتوب عليا دموع…شكل الفرح ممنوع

بصرخ و مش مسموع…مكتوب اعيش موجوع

جوا القفص ليه اطير…او من اللى بره اغيير

انا جسم من غير روح…كلمه فى كتاب ممسوح

دقه ساعات بتموت…من خوف لخوف لسكوت

حلم لكابوس لتابوت…يجرى الزمن و يفوت

Translated to English:

It turns and turns, no matter how,

My hope is shattered now.

In shadows deep or light so bright,

I play no part, no role in sight.

Tears are my fate, my destined art,

Joy's very form forbidden to my heart.

I scream aloud, but none can hear,

Condemned to live in constant fear.

Why should I try to fly, caged deep inside?

Or envy freedom others ride?

A body I am, without a soul,

A faded word, beyond control.

Each tick of time, a dying sound,

From fear to dread, then silence found.

From dream to nightmare, then the tomb,

As time flies past, sealing my doom.

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Flopped Memes (Yes Those Exist):

This was it! I hope you enjoyed the second issue…as always your feedback would be very appreciated! I’m so grateful for your support and encouragement.
See you next week…